The Result

I wish I had better news to share… We got our beta blood result yesterday and it was 15. While this indicates an implantation took place, this number also indicates a unsucessful pregnancy. We were shocked. We had every reason to believe it would work. The odds were in our favor at 70%. Seriously, how could we have 70% odds and still come up with a failure? We’re confused, shocked and so very sad. With each failure I lose more and more hope that this dream will happen for us. I am so heartbroken.

I know in my heart I did everything I could. I ate the right things. I gave up the wrong things. I did my yoga.  I did the meditation. I took every shot on time. I took every pill I was suppose to. I relaxed and I accepted it was out of my control. I guess the powers that be didn’t think it was time for me to be a mother.

It was really the picture perfect cycle with everything except the perfect result.

I’m not sure where we’ll go from here. For now, I am back in survival mode. Getting out of bed, getting dressed, trying not to let the wells of tears break the barriers of my eye lids throughout the day.

My heart hurts and my disappointment is overwhelming.

Tomorrow is beta day

This time tomorrow we well know the outcome of this cycle. To say were anxious is an understatement.

The Transfer

Great news! The transfer procedure went very well! Embryologist spent 15 minutes with us raving about the two perfect blastocyst she selected as clear front runners. My favorite doctor did the procedure and everyone was so great to us. Our future babies entered my belly in such a great environment.

I spent the next 48 hours resting and we got the great news yesterday we had 5 left to freeze! I hope well never need those extras but that security blanket is wonderful to have.

Cycle went as well as we could have hoped. Now we just need the perfect outcome. T-1 week!

Updated Embryo Report

We spoke to the clinic yesterday and of our 11 fertilized eggs, all were still progressing. 5 of them were at 8 cells, which is exactly where they should be at 3 days post fertilization. The other 6 were still progressing, but were somewhere between 4-9 cells. We’re confirmed for our transfer tomorrow, Monday, and will get our final report at that time. Our goal will be to have a minimum of 2 blastocysts for our transfer, but ideally a few more that we could freeze as well.

I’m feeling much better physically since the egg retrieval surgery on Wednesday and am ready to get our embryos in my belly.

Fingers crossed for a great lab report, healthy, good quality embryos and a smooth and safe transfer tomorrow afternoon.

Fertilization Report

We got the call this morning on the status of our eggs. Of the 16 that were retrieved, 13 were mature and 11 fertilized. Great numbers and all signs indicate that things are progressing well. We’ll get another update hopefully late tomorrow see how our eggs are doing and confirm if we are doing a Day 3 (saturday) or Day 5 (monday) transfer. We’re hoping for a Day 5, since that would give us our best shot with the highest quality embryos.

Feeling pretty sore today. Like someone punched me in the gut. Hoping tomorrow brings less pain and a good embryo report.

I’ll keep you posted.

 

Retrival Day

We had our egg retrieval procedure this morning and everything went well. I was out cold for about 30 minutes and when I came to, Chris was by my side and we got the news that they were able to retrieve a total of 16 eggs.  Feeling crampy, bloated and tired today, but haven’t felt the need to take the Valium and am hoping to feel good enough to return to work tomorrow. Will need to camouflage this bloated belly with low-rise jeans and a baggy shirt.

We’ll get the 24-hour report tomorrow on how many of our eggs fertilized. This will be a key indicator on how many of the eggs were mature and of good quality…fingers crossed for a great report.

Day 11 – Ready to go!

We had our final check in with the doctor today and everything looks wonderful. Lining was up to 7.6 mm (!!) which is great and the eggs looked nice and mature. Estrogen level was 2,800 today so they’re estimating around 10 – 15 mature eggs. I’ll do my first intermuscular (this means in the butt) shot tonight for my HCG trigger at 10:15 pm. Tomorrow is a day of rest, no shots, no meds, no appts. Then, Wednesday I’ll show up at 8:30 for our 9:15 procedure.

Everything has gone so well so far…I can only hope my luck continues.  I am feeling very thankful that my body has done its thing. Perhaps all that extra TLC I gave it over the past 2 weeks, was what it needed. I’ll be back on Wednesday with our egg count report.